Friday, December 24, 2004

Is it so difficult to let go of someone's past?

Problems, problems, problems! My dad thought that he would just bring the whole family out together for dinner last nite at East Coast for seafood, but no... that woman can't even sit down and have a simple dinner together with us.

Everything started out alright in the evening, but things got worse when we sat down at the table and started ordering dishes. Her face was totally black! I've never seen a person with such bad manners in my entire life. And she's a blardy adult! Even her son has better manners than her. She refused to eat at all throughout the meal saying that she does not like to eat outside food. Later on i found out it was becos she felt that my dad was treating her son unfairly... she felt that he treated me and my bro (who are his real flesh and blood) better than her son. Wat nonsense is she spouting? Sometimes i feel that my dad treats her son better than he treats his own children. He puts in so much effort to teach him english (as he's from China), buys stuff for him, plays computer games with him.. IS this called treating him unfairly? Not from my point of view... i seriously duno wat's going on in her head.

Anyway, went back home and she started packing her clothes, which obviously meant that she wanted to go back home to China. All this happened within a few hours.. how did things get so out of hand within a few hours? They quarreled again, with her raising her voice and screaming and shouting all the way. Why can't she talk properly? Does she have to scream and shout? All our neighbours could hear and i was afraid they would call the police. I couldn't take it in the end so i called Bran, and he agreed to come down and accompany me. I met him downstairs and we were talking till my Dad came down to look for me. So i sat down with my Dad and had a good long talk and Bran left.

The reason why she is like that is cos, she cannot let go of my Dad's past. His past with other women keeps coming back to haunt her. But all those things happened before her.. before he got married to her. So why can't she accept it? After marrying her, he has remained faithful to her.. wat more does she want? If she cannot accept his past..why come here? why choose to give up everything in China and come here to be with him? Now she says she cannot live with it any longer and because of this they have been quarreling on and off for the past year. Even though they can settle this problem today, it will still come back in the future, becos this is her character. She can never change it.

I want my dad to be happy and to have a companion when he grows old. someone who can grow old together with him and live happily. Is that so difficult? I have to admit that he made a very bad choice but wat can i do? I can only respect his decision as he is a happier man when he is with her. Although they quarrel and fight, but they also had their happy moments together. Anyway, i do not know wat this woman wants to do now... she says she wants to go back to China tonite but i feel that she will not do it. I hope she proves me wrong.....

Monday, December 20, 2004

weather's making me feel really irritated and cranky... funny how come i get a bout of the runnies and that dreaded cough so easily in hot, humid singapore whereas i didn't fall sick even once in dry, cold australia... hmm...makes 1 wonder doesn't it...?

anyway, thanks to this damn flu and cough, i've become this super irritating and cranky "Jill" who snaps and bites at my beloved Bran at every chance i get... i pick on his every action and every itty bitty little thing that he does wrong pisses me off..... in other words i've become a super BITCH!

but he bears with me as he always does.... and he does it so well too.... which makes me feel guilty as usual... so here i am apologising for my actions over the past few days... =) love u dear! muacks!

okay... now that we're past the mushy parts... here's wat's been goin on in my life in the last 4 days...

Thurs was the date 1 of my best gal pals got "ROM'ed"... Ms Lee Singyee has become Mrs Chan... haha... u now sound like my piano teacher woman... ^^ all in all it was a nice day, seeing my best gal gettin married even though she had a fever the nite before and still wasn't feeling too well on her wedding date itself......she looked gorgeous! in her midnight blue gown and her hair all done up with fairy dust (glitter) scattered on it... Andrew.. you're 1 lucky dude to have this gal as ur wife now... we had a 9 course lunch at The Legends after that... my tummy was damn blardy bloated after that... urgh...

left the place with Bran, Mel, & Ivan... Ivan insisted on us all going to Woodlands whereby he could borrow his Dad's car and fetch us all back one by one... =) so that we could go home, get changed and go out again.... went to Orchard to catch National Treasure which is really good! i seriously encourage anyone who is thinking of watching that show to WATCH it! The plot is some sorta like Dan Brown's books... which made it really interesting... i can't wait for Da Vinci Code to come out in the movies...

Below are the pics at Mrs Chan's wedding, and i'm now off to see how Naruto is coming along... IT IS TAKING FOREVER TO DOWNLOAD THE BLARDY SERIES!!! argh!!!

Sunday, December 19, 2004


Mel's chosen ornament : the big red candle...... Posted by Hello

From left to right : John (the groom's elder bro), mel, me, tianchang & Andrew (the groom) Posted by Hello

Mel, Singyee & Me... Posted by Hello

Saying their vows to each other.... Posted by Hello

Mel looks tiny next to Ivan....... Posted by Hello

Mel & I again... Posted by Hello

The bride's 2 bodyguards.... Posted by Hello

Me & Mel Posted by Hello

The bride and groom : Mr & Mrs Chan SY Posted by Hello

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

The Sick Things People Think Of.........

Logged into Friendster to check out my messages, and this was 1 of them.....


From:
Asian
Date:
December 13, 2004 11:01 PM
Subject:
Hi
Message:
Hey,I am looking for asian girls interested in making private videos. They are for my personal collection. Handjobs only...no sex. Money is paid on completion of the video. If you are interested drop me a line and I'll let you know the various amounts you can get!Bye,AsianHJ!

check out the disgustin pics...

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=14878638

Sunday, December 12, 2004

This post is for Mel

yes woman, this post is for you... since u've been complainin that i haven't been updating my blog since i came back.... =)

on Fri evenin, i received a pleasant surprise from Bran. I had just come back from my shower and was choosin my clothes for that evening (Phuture), when i saw this green package lying on top of my jeans.. my first reaction was "now wat the hell can that be?" i thot it was a birthday present from JJ at first... but after pickin it up i realised it was a book, thoughtfully chosen by Bran for my X'mas present... really early X'mas present... but nevertheless i was really happy and surprised! *grinz* i was a bit kok-eyed though... it took me a few trips to and from the mirror back to my wardrobe before i realised there was something green lying there....

Phuture was fun, i finally saw Mel dance! way to go gal! but it was damn blardy packed... took bout 10 mins to squeeze out to the toilet and another 10 mins to squeeze back to our seats... sigh.... met up with Colin outside zouk... he was goin to Velvet so we met him outside and chatted for awhile. felt good to see him again, as bran and i got so used to meetin up with him everyday while in perth.... i'm lookin forward to our little trip to KL (hopefully).

i got my results back! and i'm really happy with my grades!! i expected to fail accounting though.... so u can imagine how happy i felt when i saw my results!! hehehe

  1. Principles of Accounting - D for Distinction hor... not the usual A, B, C, D... hehe
  2. Principles of Marketing - D
  3. Principles of Commercial Law - D
  4. Introduction to Multimedia - D

yay!!! hope i can score a HD next sem... =)

well, there is really nothing much for me to update....nothing much has changed except for my hair color... got sick of the "ah lian" hair... so......... that's about it! till next time.... toodles~