i'm tired... so so tired... i wish i could just leave singapore now... and not have to stay in this damn house anymore... no more listening to them quarrel... no more having to endure nites when i can't sleep... sometimes i just get so sick and tired of the both of them... i really wish that i were staying with my mom.. at least i know that they would not quarrel in the middle of the night... at least i could sleep in peace.. but then again... i would miss my dad... guess its all fated... that this woman had to barge into my life... turn it upside down... life was so peaceful when i did not know of this woman's existence... but... my dad is a happier person when he is with her... so i guess i should not be so selfish... but sometimes it just gets so hard to bear.... no one can understand wat i'm going thru... i noe i'm 21 years old going on 22... but at times i wish i was just a kid.. and i would not have to deal with all this shit... it just feels so wrong... like i should not have to deal with all this now... i envy those who have happy families... when they know that their mom and dad would not let them go thru all this stuff... i hope my dad made a correct decision when he married this woman... this woman who will never be a part of my family no matter wat she does.. in fact, i do not hate her... i pity her.. this woman who is like a child.. this woman who thinks that she is strong when actually she is so weak.. this woman who will never, never ever fit in no matter how hard she tries.....